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What am I Chasing?

There is a best plan for me in each season of my life.  God has a purpose for every trial I walk through, every difficulty I face, and every pain I feel.  I don’t understand the reason why most of the time. 


And in not understanding, I start to chase. 

I chase people God knows will keep me from His purposes.

I chase places God knows will keep dragging me back into the past.

I chase passions God knows will hinder me from loving people fully.

I chase pursuits God knows will prevent me from making progress.

I chase popularity God knows will prevent me from hearing and following Him.


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God sees my struggle as I face of the dilemma of going my way – chasing the easy things that are accessible and make me feel good – versus following Him down the path that will require perseverance and patience.  He knows I will want to choose easy over hard, now over later, happy over joy.  And He knows the damage these things will do to me and those around me, both now and in the future. 


But He loves me so much He allows me to choose.  Every day.  Every choice.  As I stand at the crossroads, deciding how I will choose, determining if I more believe in the truth of myself or my God, He whispers lovingly in my ear and gently into my heart.  Wisdom.  Choose wisdom.


He hopes I will be wise enough to hear His warnings about the temporary nature of easy things, which I will have to chase again and again and again (without end) to keep my feelings fresh and new.


He hopes I will be wise enough to lean into patience, which requires pausing to consider all the possibilities and thinking through the consequences both good and bad.


And I hope so, too.


So, I have to consider … what am I chasing?


Who is in my life that I insist be there?

What do I refuse to let go of, convinced I need it?

When am I choosing to ignore needs instead of loving people?

Why am I making the crazy choices I do and creating regret?

Where am I going that I know is keeping me back or down?

How am I not changing the way I think, feel, speak, and act?


Because if I really want to chase God – if I really want my life to make a difference, if I really want to experience God’s love to the fullest, if I really want to live and give grace – then I need to ask these hard questions … honestly.  I need to be real about where I am – and how I got there.


And only then can I start to chase God.  Not people.  Not places.  Not passions.  Not pursuits.  Not popularity.


Only then can I be Peter, standing on the crashing waves, boldly walking without care (Matthew 14:29).


Only then can I be Jesus, kneeling the garden praying “My Father, if there is no other way than this, drinking this cup to the dregs, I’m ready.  Do it Your way” (Matthew 26:41 MSG).


Only then can I be Paul, stating “I’ve learned by now to be quite content whatever my circumstances” (Philippians 4:11 MSG) while standing in prison chains awaiting his death.


Only then can I be James, knowing God’s love for people and choosing to live in a way that “we’re not going to unnecessarily burden” (Acts 15:19 MSG) people with our traditions and regulations and interpretations.


Only when I chase God – with a passionate and pure pursuit – will I find all that I need to successfully steward my life … and so much more! 


Loving Father,

Thank You for the possibility of having Your best.  Thank You for loving me enough to make a way to connect with me personally.  As I consider how to navigate through my day and steward my life, I pray You help me find Your direction and Your way.  I pray You help me hear Your loving whisper guiding me toward Your will and Your way.  Help me to be like Peter, whose excitement could not be contained when he saw his risen Savior on the shoreline.  Help me to be like Peter, who reversed his denials of Jesus with his declarations of love – and was given a new purpose and position in Your kingdom.  Help me to be like Peter, whose truth could not be contained when he was in the upper room on Pentecost.  Help me to discern Your will so I can steward my life in that direction.  Help me to keep my focus on You instead of the people around me who seem to have it all and the things around me that tempt me to unbelieve.  Thank You for Your correction – and Your direction – when I miss Your mark.  Thank You for redeeming my past mistakes and redefining my future ministry.  In Jesus’ all-might name.  AMEN!


Marie Fremin.  8/25/19.


Beware the Armor

38 So Saul clothed David with his armor, and he put a bronze helmet on his head; he also clothed him with a coat of mail. 39 David fastened his sword to his armor and tried to walk, for he had not tested them. And David said to Saul, “I cannot walk with these, for I have not tested them.” So David took them off” (1 Samuel 17:38-39).


David has shown up on the battlefield where his three oldest brothers are at war.  He has been sent by his father with supplies for them (17) and is hoping to bring back good news to his father (18).


He probably expects to see an intense battle taking place.  Maybe he will get to see something exciting.  But instead he finds an arrogant Philistine army on one side (8-10) and a hesitant Israelite army on the other (3, 11).  No fighting because Israel is terrified (16, 24).


Standing there in shock, he hears the taunts of the Philistine champion Goliath (23).  And David is outraged.  How dare anyone challenge God or His army (26)!  He is so upset that he declares that HE, a young shepherd, is ready to fight the taunting giant (32).  King Saul scoffs (33), but David knows he is more than able to defeat Goliath – God has kept him safe in the sheep fields (34-36), and God has not changed.  Therefore “The Lord … will deliver me from the hand of this Philistine” (37).


With no one else willing to fight, Saul has no choice but to send David in.  If the boy does not survive, he can say it was his foolish choice to go and he could not be stopped.  But he, as the leader, cannot send the boy in defenseless.


So how does one defeat a giant covered in armor (5-7)?  Obviously by dressing up like – and therefore being evenly matched with – the giant.  Right?


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That is such a simple yet deadly lie we are led to believe.  We are divine warriors, not simpering similars.  Why would we want to look anything like our (spiritual) enemy?  He lost with the cross and is currently biding his time until Jesus returns.  He has no power, no authority, and no wisdom within him or available to him.  So don’t try to imitate him.


But Saul did.  Saul thought dressing David up in full armor would work.  “So Saul clothed David with his armor, and he put a bronze helmet on his head; he also clothed him with a coat of mail.” (38).  But it did not.  The armor was so heavy, so awkward, and so unnatural to him that he was stuck.   “I can’t even move with all this stuff on me” (39, MSG).


And that is what the enemy wants to do with us.  He wants us to look like him, act like him, think like him, and look like him.  And he always wants us to believe that we are less than God’s best when we don’t.  He wants to overwhelm us with uncertainty and overtake us with indecision.  He wants us to take ownership of things God does not have purposed for us.  Things that are awkward, heavy, and unnatural.  So we become paralyzed and indecisive.


David knew he could not fight if he could not move.  So the shepherd boy goes back to what has worked in the past – a simple weapon (40) and an enormous faith (45).  And we are still talking about the power of being yourself all these years later.


Saul’s armor didn’t work for David.  So David went back to who God created him to be and what worked best for him.


Other people’s expectations and labels won’t work for you.

Don’t own them.  Don’t accept them.  Don’t wear them.

Don’t conform to that awkward character people want you to wear.


Be the poetry and the masterpiece God created you to be (Ephesians 2:10).

Walk in what you know to be true about yourself through God’s grace.


Claim the truth of who He is and how good He is.

Grab hold of the power He has waiting for you.

Run toward His purpose for you.


So I pray today that God has touched your heart – and you are willing to consider the armor in your life.  Let today be the day you take off anything that isn’t of God and is keeping you from moving toward His best.


Marie Fremin.  3/1/19, 3/2/19


Purpose of the Pit

I talked to someone recently about the consequences he is facing for a bad choice.  He chose to make a bad decision and now frets about having to suffer the consequences.


Joseph did not have the same luxury.  He committed no crime.  One of the two biggest complaints about Joseph was that he was a tattletale – “… Joseph brought a bad report of them to his father” (Genesis 37:2).


It appears to be the “easiest” way of life for Joseph.  He follows his ten older brothers around, feeding the family’s livestock and doing chores around their properties.  And he is sometimes sent purposely to spy – and then tattle – on them.  Like in Genesis 37:14 – “Please go and see if it is well with your brothers and well with the flocks, and bring back word to me.


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Joseph had it good.  Go see what his wayward brothers are doing and report back to his father.  Who will probably chew out the brothers about what he tattled about.  Then he is rewarded by his father for his “disloyalty” to his brothers with gifts.  Which he probably rubs in his brothers’ faces – and they have to face these physical reminders of how much their dad doesn’t really love them … compared to the favorite son Joseph.


How often did you flaunt the fact that your dad loved you more (Genesis 37:3a)?  How often did you try to hurt them with his love?


Because I cannot imagine at 17 that you were trying to play nice with your brothers … but maybe you were and just got caught up in Jacob’s net.  I imagine you were the typical brother who rubbed their noses in Jacob’s favoritism, a lot … but maybe it bothered you that all your brothers hated you greatly and refused to speak to you (Genesis 37:4).


What I do know for sure if that you, at the age of 17, were a tattletale.  You were often sent to spy on your brothers – and I wonder if you ever had anything good to report.


And looking at you at 17, your destiny seems obvious – stay with Jacob while your brothers disperse and never speak to you again.  You may have evolved into a good man, but you could have easily remained a tattletale who alienated those around you.


The problem with this path?  God saw 13 years down the road, and He needed a governor.  He needed someone secure and stable.  He needed a mature and careful man.  He needed someone humble with integrity.


And at 17, were you any of these things?  Probably not.  I would guess you often enjoyed tattling on your brothers and being showered with gifts.  You probably relished your father’s attention, even though it caused great strife and division.


But God needed a leader.  God needed a man confident enough to stand on his own, outside of anyone’s shadow and influence.  God needed a man people would respect enough to follow.  God needed a man who would care about others.


And as a 17-year-old tattletale, you weren’t him.  There was no palace or position of leadership in your future.


But God had a palace for you, even at 17.  So He had to prepare you.  He had to separate you from the poison of Jacob’s favoritism.  He had to remove you from the hostility of your brothers.  He had to strip you of everything you cherished.


Because in that moment, you had nothing but God.  Literally.  You had your ephod and your chains, and nothing else when your brothers “sold him to the Ishmaelites for twenty shekels of silver. And they took Joseph to Egypt” (Genesis 37:28).


Seems harsh.  Seems extreme.  Seems cruel.  But it was so necessary, so God could start to build the character of a governor in you.


He did not let your angry brothers kill you as they wanted (Genesis 37:18-20).  God had big plans for you.  So He purposed your oldest brother Reuben to convince the other 9 to throw you into a pit instead (Genesis 37:22).


And that pit, Joseph, was the biggest blessing of your life.  Yes, it was deep and dark and “there was no water in it” (Genesis 37:24).  But that was the exact place God’s destiny began and His salvation came alive.


For God started ordering your steps to Egypt, where He needed you to be 13 years later.  What reason would you have had to go on your own?  What reputation would you have had if you did?  How would you have gotten an audience with Pharaoh?  You would have been too unknown and insignificant if left to continue your life as it was.


And I know God starting doing a great work in you in that pit.  Because you become a different man.  Instead of spending your days looking for ways to rat out Potiphar’s staff, you focused on your God and your duties.  Which led you to be promoted to “overseer of his house” (Genesis 39:4), trusted completely because of your integrity.  And you had a valid opportunity to tattle on his adulterous and flirtatious wife, who continuously threw herself at you … until that one fateful day when she tried to take you by force.  You ran, and she lied.  But we don’t see any record of you trying to defend yourself by tattling on her.


And God was with you every day you spent in prison unjustly because of her.  Until finally the day came that you were ready for the palace.  Yes, He brought you from the pit, through slavery, through prison – and finally you arrived at the palace!


And when Pharaoh calls you to interpret his dreams, you give God the credit instead of making it all about you (Genesis 41:16).  You have become so humble.  You didn’t ask Pharaoh for anything for yourself, even though you were in the perfect position to suggest yourself for power (Genesis 41:33).  You have learned to trust God, so you share the wise plan for surviving the coming famine.


And because you don’t ask to become part of the team, God honors the man you have become by having Pharaoh appoint you second in command (Genesis 41:40).


That governor God saw in you before the pit became a reality because of the pit.  He used the pit as the start of your leadership training and the end of your superiority complex.  He used the pit to break your father’s control over you so would be willing to lean into God instead.  He used the pit to show you the power of humility – and how far it will take you in life.


Your best life started in that pit – because you were destined to be more than a tattletale.  You spent 13 years waiting to get to the palace – but then God blessed you by allowing you spend 80 years in the palace.  Being able to influence people and save lives.


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And the added bonus?  You reconciled with your brothers and reconnected with your father.  And you were finally able to have a great relationship with them.


So what is the take away for us?  Don’t shun your pit.  God has you there to break some influence off of you.  It is the place that starts your journey to God’s palace.  “God meant it for good” (Genesis 50:20) – because the pit will help you start moving toward the good life He has planned and waiting for you.


Marie Fremin.  10/7/18