“Do you trust me?”
I was asked this question this week, and it took everything in me not to physically cringe or roll my eyes dramatically. I was willing to answer the question … and answer it honestly. Even though I knew the answer would not go over well.
But God was gracious, and He allowed it to be a quick question in the middle of a long conversation. No answer from me was needed. So no pot was stirred. No history was repeated. No feelings were disparaged.
But it still got me thinking what a loaded and potentially dangerous and/or life altering the question can be.
I don’t mind telling you the truth, about anything. But I realize that my truth telling is conditional. Because how honest I am depends on who you are and what the situation is.
When you ask me directly, I answer honestly. There is a really good chance I will be fully honest, holding nothing back. But I might hesitate at full honesty if the circumstances are sketchy – if I know you will disagree with me, you won’t hear me, you only want me to agree with you (whether I do or not), or you want something use it against me.
And I think we are all the same way (if we’re honest).
But then a bigger question came up – Do I trust God?
It is one thing to have caution and care with people. But there should be no boundaries, no hesitation, and no doubt when it comes to God.
So do I trust the person who asked me the question? Not fully, at least not in our shared setting.
Do I trust God? Completely.
This doesn’t mean I understand everything that happens.
This doesn’t mean I have all my questions answered.
This doesn’t mean I always get my way or my wish.
It simply means that I have come to the crossroads of decision and decided that God is the best choice.
No matter what the circumstance.
No matter what the emotion.
No matter what the comfort level.
No matter what the company.
And King Solomon, the wisest man to ever live, says this is the wisest choice to make. “5 Trust in the Lord with all your heart, And lean not on your own understanding; 6 In all your ways acknowledge Him, And He shall direct your paths” (Proverbs 3:5-6).
Trust in the Lord – in all circumstances and with all confidence. Don’t think you know better. Don’t assume you are smarter. Don’t try to convince God your plan is better. Stop and listen to what He wants to say to you – and then not trust your own wants, desires, and thinking.
Maybe he learned this from his father, King David, one of the beloved men of God. David, no matter what he was going through, always chose to trust God. When despised and left out by his brothers, he trusted God. When on the run for 15 years from his father-in-law King Saul, he trusted God. When God refused to let him build His house, he trusted God. Through everything he experienced, David chose to live by his words in Psalm 37:3-6 – “3 Trust in the Lord, and do good; Dwell in the land, and feed on His faithfulness. 4 Delight yourself also in the Lord, And He shall give you the desires of your heart. 5 Commit your way to the Lord, Trust also in Him, And He shall bring it to pass. 6 He shall bring forth your righteousness as the light, And your justice as the noonday.”
Maybe you aren’t quite there yet. And that’s OK. God is waiting patiently for you. He can be your hope and your healing, your confidence and your clarity, your surety and your safety, your faith and your future. When you are ready and decide to trust Him. “Blessed is the man who trusts in the Lord, And whose hope is the Lord” (Jeremiah 17:7).
Marie Fremin, 8/12/17